Chanel French Manicure:



So. Much. Love.

Libraryyyy for drinks yesterday. Need to stop drinking before I grow a beer belly :(. I am currently 56% through my download of Gossip Girl se3ep11. This is the most patient I've been in a long time. In desperate need of some Chuck Bass action right now.


Finally ordered my iPhone 3GS yesterday, after weeks of contemplation. The perks of being daddy's little girl heeeee. The nice lady at the roadshow assured me that I'll get it by Monday, right before I leave for Aus. Monday is soooooooooo far awayyyyyy. I want it nowwww.

ALSO, I'm a Maxis user now but my number will remain the same. All you stingy Maxis bastards can text me more often now OKEH! You know who you are!


I have to go pick Vidya up now. We're going to get down to business tonight! PARTY PARTY PARTYYYY.

I'm back. Needless to say, David and I are officially the Worst Friends on Earth. 1) we made the abominable mistake of going to the wrong mutha effin memorial park. D even went to customer service to ask for the location of Sing Hing's grave.. Only to find out that the memorial park we were supposed to be in was just down the road. How could we have forgotten? It's not like we've never been there before. 2) we bought him flowers that were poorly wrapped. The florist paid little attention to detail. 3) we stood in front of his urn not knowing what to say, where to look, or how to react despite the number of months that have passed since his death.


I'm going to sleep this off. I don't know how I'm going to fall asleep. Completely went overboard and satiated myself at dinner. The guilt will probably keep me awake.. Better the guilt than the empty, ineffable, piece of shit feeling that I felt when-- nevermind.


x

Tomorrow, I am going to visit someone special with a friend. With us we will bring flowers and hand-written letters. What pains me most about paying him a visit is the fact that he won't be aware of our presence, even if we were to stand right in front of him, or rather, his picture. We are but ordinary physical beings, believing we have the very right to thrive off figments of our imaginations. A flicker of a candle, a sudden cool breeze, goosebumps - everything that is seemingly out of the ordinary resonates with the denial I hold firmly onto. You're still alive. No, you're not gone. This is still a joke. One day, maybe one day, you'll surprise us all. And then we'll move on. You and your family. You and your friends. Everyone you left behind. No, reality is reality. There is no other way of interpreting it. You're gone forever. The last time I dreamt of you was in February. Why don't you come back anymore? Why don't I see you anymore? I don't want to forget the sound of your voice, your laughter, the way you walk. I don't want to forget you. Story of my life. I'm sorry I haven't been around for awhile. David is back now, and we're coming to see you.

I'm so mutha effin bored. I quote Erik, "the post-exam euphoria has died off". I expected it to mellow down but not to THIS level. This is the worst kind of low. So many more weeks to kill before Uni starts. I've been watching Kevjumba all night. He's adorable. I have also been spending too much money. I think I'm beginning to be a tad bit broke. How can you resist Chanel nailpolish?? Mom thinks it's ridiculous how I've made it a point to collect Chanel nailpolish. It's a good hobby. At least I'm not so bored anymore.

GOODNIGHT!

collateral damage

Adrian went back to Sabah already <=(

Ivykins

Sundeep's place for shisha and beer ages ago. I think I have a whole album of pictures from his place. It's our second home. We've been there.. 6 out of 7 days. I haven't been home for more than 24 hours since finals ended. Wow. Alcohol everyday. My liver is jacked. Now Sundeep's in Dubai, Ruru is in Seremban, Usamah's in Penang, Adrian's back in Sabah, Jyneesz is going back to Penang tomorrow, Siew's in Bangkok, Ivy's leaving for Thailand and Yuhan and I are leaving for Australia in a week. Separation at its best.


I can't wait to get away from everything. Everything that is in occurence among everyone. The waging war on who did what to who. It's the lack of communication (not justification), really. To exemplify in clean-cut candor: it took Nate and Chuck to force Blair and Serena into reconciliation. Also, relating a tween TV show to reality is completely passe and when your reference is to an age-old episode? How elementary. The point is, there are consequences to everything. Maybe it's time I take my own advice.

I'm finally home and bumming around as planned. Graduation was on (fuck what day is it today?) Thursday. It's like I had a 7-day weekend. Everyday drink. Everyday shisha. Everyday everyday home after midnight, going to bed by 4. Unhealthyyy. My liver is secretly reeling in pain and oh my God I woke up with a terrible gastric and a bruise the size of Africa on my left knee. Now how did that happen? :<


Let's not drink tonight..


Graduation last Thursday.. It was okay. Ausmat flew by too fast. Where did the year go? Now we're all 'growing up' and making a transition from PRE-U to University. Heeellooo University!

Erik

Michael Sam!

Ruru & Michael

Dian

Anthony!
Known him for 7 years. Ausmat reunited us. :')

Mun Mun

Nancy Alexandraaaa


Ms Angela. Career and Enterprise lecturer. Fav lecturer :>


Sundeep love.




Justin attempting Yuhan's smile.
Yuhan trying to be an emokid.




I, Yuhan, Shahira, Ruru, Justin & Shiat Teen. :>






Yuhan and girls.




"wait no! the flash!"


Yuhan

Ivy and I


Mr screamo emo

I, Mun Mun, Leon, Sim & Michael

Mun, Ruru, Yi Wei & Amelia :>

<3



Afterparty at Maison. Ladies' nighttt. Packed like a can of sardines. Music sucked before midnight.

Kkkrazy lashes

Usamah Idros (must die) heee

Done done done done.

Currently downloading Gossip Girl. I'm bored of Leighton already. Give me more Taylor Momsen. I want her hair.
Need to clean my room boohoo :<